realized!

amat sesuai. can i say sorry...n im so sorry even i know i should giv a change for self too but not at this moment..IM SO SORRY!

false positive result

Stocrine can cause a false positive test for THC or marijuana in some patients. I have write a note for patients to have handy in case that happens (simply states that patients X is under my care and is taking a necessary prescribed drug that can cause a false positive marijuana test). KH

Tetrahydrocannabinol (pronounced /ˌtɛtrəˌhaɪdrɵkəˈnæbɨnɒl/ tet-rə-HYE-drə-kə-NAB-i-nol) (THC), also known as delta-9-tetrahydrocannabinol (Δ9-THC), Δ1-THC (using an older chemical nomenclature), or dronabinol, is the main psychoactive substance found in the cannabis plan.

False positive kat cni means mayb for marijuana @ ganja n at certain case for benzo group.

this statement apply like at Sg Buloh or HKL.. i already discuss with specialist here,but they wont give some escape for patients especially who are ex-drug addict (Dr asking me... r u believed them)...at this moment..dalam keadaan bersalah... if im not believed them, they were my patients n if i percayakan mereka, can b mereka akan mgunakan kpercayaan saya.

then it is not fair for me as a RVD pharmacist, i exclude the RVD patients yang pernah menjadi penagih dadah unless i can stand to see rvd patients like 'mayat hidup' in da ward n still survive for life. n most of them are MALAY! bangsa saya...
at this moment, saya pun terfikir... can i apply for new posting quickly..so i can escape in this involvement.... but, saya akan tfikir lagi..how about da women..yang tjerat bcoz of their stupid husband... dan yang mjadi mangsanya adalah wanita dan anak kecil itu... of my God sometime this world does not really fair...

dan hati kecil saya bkata ..Dia maha mengetahui... u r not God tu judge n punish them. i must b here n give them hand to make sure they can survive. i LURVE my job now. Give them a second chance to forgive themsaelf.:))

my saturday...

agaknya bile la dapat aku abiskan weekend yang best tanpa ke tempat kerja..that a really nice weekend...
bile big bos tak puas hati ngan kerja kita, he wants something new, look more natural.. orang yang btukus lumus pun terpaksa dtukar la. mayb he want someone yang look more fresh. i dont know!
adrian pun jadi sasarannya..so pity..need to act a few time but finally berjaya!!GOOD
harapnya..this one will b da last act n my big boss satisfy with our effort...

i miss sYa so muchh..

t'amat rindukan sYa...
why 3G not working here...
at last call, told me I LURVE U..
feel like to scream...
i lurve u so much...
God..plz allow me to b strong untill we meet again...
just b strong to wait until end this months...
really cant wait!!

so longgg...

tsangat la lame x jenguk blog nih...
jot down again to release something inside...
now already 6 months-really fast im continued staying at this hospital n there were already for months im staying at this taman...
bjirankan jiran saangat peramah, kadang2 saya mjadi segan.everything u do, they will look on u..
might b its good n u feel safe at ur home...
p.cik ni, sangat bek..m.cik ni tlalu baek..they act like mother n father for me..nice.....

actually very mnay thing to do but still dont hav mood for it
u need think about soft skill, kik n most important thing is to become rvd pharmacist...
now already got 20 patients of rvd to take care. i do my best to help u all my dear patients but if never come collect ur medicine, i cant do anything. call u all pun x dapt...
so hard, most of them are drug addicts n sometime just come out from prison..im really cant help u all if u never help urself...
now..come out with idea for a good flow in mtac tapi belum bertindak lagi...
WHERE MY ENERGY GO???...HUH..

before and after...

screaming.. a lot of thing to think about.....
today...able to handle methadone guiding by teh..tq...
this evening..need to attend HIS meeting...nasib baek pn maimon ade same..tcengang beb, i dont know anything....

miss my prp and scared on be frp......

my prp at hoshas n b frp too at hoshas.....

They were my staff at FKP.. I will work again with them for another few years..