weekend

hari minggu..memang sangat dtunggu la.....so ape yang saya wat ye..hurm...
pagi sabtu, ronda kuantan with my sis.... cari jalan short cut to office...
then, i drove to trg.... saya tak blk umah mak dulu but go to my sis home at Dungun... tell me why???? because i nak merasa masakan kg akak yang best...da lunch meal so simple..but, imagine..saya tambah tiga kali..tiga pinggan....lagi la, nek ma ade skali kat situ...asyik surh saya makan bnyak...kecik sangat ke saya nih????

hidangan lunch ari tu ade la sambal petai (lamae gile tak makan), sotong bakar, ikan masak jawa, ngan ikan aduhai goreng( i pun tak tau ape jenis ikan nih), tambah lagi cicah ngan budu..he..he..my favourite gak itu.... lame tak makan cam nih...best sangat..... fuh, kenyang.....

the next day...pegi jupa dentist, wat scaling...sakit bangat..rase nak tercabut seme gigi nih....now, i try find out one of ortho dentist for da care...belum jupe lagi..... Teh cal me..ask to go to kuala kemaman...jalan-jln cari makan.... but, today i prepare nasik ayam for my mum...so..tak sempat nak gi kuala kemaman...i am so sleepy at that time...

in my mind.. a lot work still not complete....
consaimen record from miss goh????
another one from Tuan Shaikh....
i try to finish all tonite....chayook..

enforcement...

first day at enforcement...i terase rindunya kat Hoshas....
i am alone there...that so bored...at one time, there were no work to do.... itu yang terasa boring teramat... mula la teringat kat hoshas....yang asyik berkejaran saipkan keje n go ward.....

please help me... at one time i dont want arrived at office so early...but bila.saya kluar lambat dari rumah...the road jam so bad... itu yang tak tahan itu..lagi satu yang pasti, bile sampai opis, i never see someone i no.....n say good morning....

kalu kat hoshas, mest pagi2 kita great each other... tak pun saya akan terserempak ngan awak dulu tiap pagi, with ur stylo style, beg galas kat bahu.... dari jauh awk dah senyum dah....here..nothing... cepat la enforcement berlalu... i want back to Hoshas... i miss there...everyone...n mostly...of coz la U!!!!!

thanx u!!!

For Lee Li Gou....
thanx very much for replacing me for second call during da weekend....
u allow me take a break..how kind u r...
thanx also coz...complete our writing proposal...hu..hu... i cant help u at that time
n thanx for ur wish of luck for my forensic exam.......
what should i say r....u r such great colleague...
nant i blk HoShas, bole same2 lunch in friday ya....

labu labi

kecian kamu asyik terkurung je...
dulu kecik aje...skrg kamu dah besar...sebab kamu kuat makan...n seme ikan kecik tu kamu telan...
bile la agaknye si haikal tu mahu lepaskan kamu ye...hurm...

this labi belong to haikal, my stubborn nephew..

xcident...

sakitnye bile jatuh moto...
meraung tak berlagu...
ape lagi kalu si kenit ni yg jatuh....
luckily..something more worst did not happen..thanx God...
look on muke Daniel...i no... it was so pain....
cepat sembuh ye...n jgn nakal lagi....


inilah yang sya nampak bile masuk wad Orto....
org patah kaki, tangan...(patah tangan????saya pun penah..he..)...
muka luka, lebam..everything la...espicially when MVA...hu..hu...so bad...

itu aku

aku yang tak reti nak marah orang...
aku marah pun...aku tak kan cakap depan die....
until my tears flow down..... tapi yang kene tempiasnye mest la seme orang...
ya Tuhan..dari kecik sampai beso..perangai tak berubah.......
bile orang buat aku sakit... aku diam...
cuma aku doa, LAknatullah bukan sahabat aku...
sebab bile kita marah... itulah yang akan dekat dengan kita...
tapi semalam...

itu cerita semalam....... jadikan semalam sepadan... dan hari lebih baik dari semalam...

saya yang menurut perintah...

biasa la..saya teruskan cerita di bilik methadone... Teh stat kursus today..so org len ganti tempat Teh.. lemahnye jiwa dan raga aku bile bekerja dengan pgwai len. i tak suke....

Fuh, Pn Su today...
Arahan pertama... awak, pegi kluarkan stok methadone, amik 20 botol...
rase nak tercabut lutut aku, aku rasa belum ade PRP yg kene kluarkan stok.... kalu aku tersilap mcm mane... meraung tak berlagu la.... silap2 kene wat report polis...

so..b strong..just follow the procedure.... aku kluarkan stok methadone 20 bottles... then i just put the methadone into the clear plastic... masuk je dlm bilik methadone... macm biase early morning, pesakit memg ramai tg tggu nak amik dote... i bring the methadone in front of them... then, Mr tarudin, our KPK.. say to me... hey, elok skit bawak tu... he staring at me...

at that moment, i never notice yet.... masuk je dalam, baru la saya faham... saya bawak stok methadone yg banyak... dan saya lalu di hadapan pesakit methadone.... can u imagine, if THEY terkam u, and take that methadone.... oh my God, kenapa saya tak terfikir..baru saya faham kenapa Mr tarudin tegur saya....... sepatutnye, saya bawak methadone tu dalam plastik yg diorag tak boleh prasan.... that my first time.... i hope i never repeat my mistake.....

depress workplace..

if i go to methadone room, not much thing i need to think about. work together with Teh so pleasant.. he teach me a lot on how to handle the patient.. paham je la...methadone, pesakitnye bukan org biase... each of them were ex-drug addict and also some of them still addicted to drug.. and no doubt, ade kalangan mereka were HIV positive... like MA always say that Teh not like others some pegawai.. Teh can b frenzz, can b joke.. that true.. tapi time keje, he work seroiusly and want all da work move fast.. tpi beza Teh with others pegawai, he really nice to methadone pt... slalu denga apa maslh pesakit... tp bukan bmakna die izinkan, our pt naik muka...ape yg saya tabik ngan Teh, he make methadone pt respect to him.... do methadone never make me under depression....

abih je methadone, i need go to satelit .. but why..why..why...that girl r always try to find out my mistake.... when at the moment, i open the door, i heard her voice... yanie...u tak record ini!!!!!! and when i want go dispen medication to pt, she say to me... yanie, u pegi dispen cepat ckit ye... I NO la u nak blk awal..... nampak tak ubat tu banyak....

dari sekecil mistake, he always try to korek.... she meke me feel stupid.. i no..she senior here, so, sebagai junior yg patuh, i just silent and do the work.. sedaya yg boleh, i try to prevent to talk with her... kalo, die benar2, pegawai yg bertauliah, kenapa tiggalkan keje then just back home and let others complete the work... she always think that she so great.....plzz r...

yanie..bertahan la.... ur PRP period only another 7 months.. lamenye tu....

wedding bell ringing

congratulation for Ina Sakre , my coursemate at Uitm who will get married next week.... majlis kat kedah and her partner at johor....

congrate too for Suzie, my schoolmate during at mjsc qtan, also get married on this 29... thank you so much for the invitation...

for both of my friend, i always pray for ur happiness ever and after.......
for sure lagi banyak undangan lepas nih......
then, others will ask me too..u bile lg???? ha..ha..tgelak... i am so workaholic, no time for searching da partner at this moment....

hope

im on second call again continuously this week and next week.. how crazy i am...
but, i will take a long break after that... like it...

methadone...rase macam tak ramai pt je ari nih....but so great today.. one of methadone pt berjaya decrease dose to 10mg...fantastic..meaning..he only take 2ml of methadone start today... he request to decrease dose..because he stable without any withdrawal symptom for now and he denied taking any other drug..i hope one day, die akan stop taking methadone and free from drug....

another one methadone pt... umur muda lagi dari saya... but unlucky involve in drug because stress of family problem.... tapi bile dah sedar, die mahu berubah and take methadone to stop himself from taking another drug... skarg pun dose methadone this pt dah rendah.... im also hope that one day this pt benar2 bebas dr pengaruh dadah..sebab sayang sangat... umur die muda lagi...

when methadone pt never come to take dot..dont believed on them...they given thousand reasons of absent..but when do a urine test.. the test will be positive for drug.... and some of them, akan mengaku punye la yg diorg amik heroin lagi... so WHAT POINT OF MEHADONE for them???? for pt like this, Teh remind me..jgan layann, just give them methadone and let them go.....

when i go through, most of methadone pt was MALAY.... hurm..betapa ramainye melayu rosak because of drug, start dengan suke2 but then finally, destroy ownself...then i still wonder, benarkah diorg nih nak berubah???

rest

seronoknye kalu dapat curi mase pegi bercuti..bile la agaknye dapat cuti lame skit nih..hurm...

i wish to go to another island to have snorkeling...

berada di tengah lautan... all da problem u will forget... apa yang ada is just keindahan ciptaan Ilahi.

ikan2 ini sangt cantik.. remind me the story of latescalcarifer who strive for life and friendship.


peliharakan keindahan alam ini.... great coral.

hana yori donga

hana yori donga version korean???
actually saya belum tengok lg korean version...
tp...jepun version..not bad la... itu bqape taun yg dulu..watak domyoji..memang kene la...same like comic... the guy yg bodo sombong, ego and so on la....
the first comic, make me feel love with this story...he..he..
dulu Iwan slalu kate cite komik nih best... tp saya memg x caye cakap abg saya tuh.. lastly..bile dah bace.... saye slalu surh Iwan belikan komik tue(time tu, saya blaja lg, Iwan dah keje..tu pasl saya slalu suqh iwan belikan komik tu)... memg best gile...
tup2, bile kuar series, i spend my money to buy the cd.....

korean version.. i never seen yet

versi jepun... i like it...watak domyoji memg cam dalam komik....

this is the comic version....i like IT...

something

something that make u feel that u r not the perfect one...
when u try push everything away..it will come close to you..
i put it side me..so that..one day..the memories go away..
never... i never blame the fate because He know the best for me...

Jodoh, Ajal dan Maut di tangan Tuhan...
Dia lebih mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk Hambanya...


benarkah SILENT is the way to solve the problem?????