Friday, May 29, 2009

buzynyeee kamu seme...

this one is funny story..
when everyone will go to marry, my colleague so buzy try to find out someone for me... ape kene la diorang nih..everytime when new HO come to our hospital, how buzy they all ask, yanie... ok tak...
annoying..what???? pura2 tak tau... mals nak layan...

but the klimaks of story today....
yeah, before this k.su ask....this one guy.... kecik macam awak... ok la tu ngan yanie..... who k.su???
no......no...no.....that one is my last senior prp...always come to our hospital...so shy......
i dont know what they all plan....this morning at the moment i at ward, i got call from ee boon....
ee boon: yanie come to satelit now..
me: what??? ade makan2 ye...wait...i stair down now(never suspect anyhing)

arrived at satelit... open the door.... tgamam.... what u all doing????? my face turn red.....
that so crazy........i cant explained anymore.....
he smile and go out.....you all nih..........

Sunday, May 24, 2009

warded

i got a bad news today....
when something bad event happens, my sis always keeping out from me....
tu pun, luckily i call back to home..if not, im sure they never told me...
my mum was warded at HUSM today....
actually, mum should have endoscopy today at HUSM....
but, on going this procedure, she had bleed so much until dr stop the procedure...
her blood count fall to 4. today, this evening dr transfuse one bag of blood...another a bag this nite and followed by two bag tomorrow..and the total is 4 bags of blood to up her blood count to 10.
my mum still continued fasting as endoscopy will be done tomorrow...
at the moment im talking to her this evening, she told me... doakan mak selamat.... dont worry so much..... my tears start to flow down, im really want to be at her side...but i cant.................

worst oncall

start my first day oncal, my phone ringing non stop...
i thought this oncal is so worst, a lot of cases which i had cover.....
waaa.... mt sleep so disturbing on this week....
imagine....sometime simple case also want find out the pharmacist on cal....
safa...jangan merungut....hu..hu....
praying...plz....tomorrow morning come early........

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

only three words..

simple song from plain white ts....
yeah..that only three words....

i no i cant, but still take it

lately, bundle of work to do...
i thought that my preceptor become more fierce in guiding me... n sometime make me scared to do decision.
no matter if i showed sooo stupid to her, my voice want come out something..and really hope my idea will be accepted...... smile...when my recommendation have been accepted.....

caffeine..nescafe.... i no i cant take it.. because it will make me insomnia, palpitation and also tremor...but...i am so stubborn..... still get it...just to make me alert and wake up at the middle of nite to complete my assignment... still like student..hurm.... just to remind myself, never take it often... not so good for me..... only a cup of nescafe, enough make me tremor and palpitation and this will disturb me from doing my work.... take a lot of plain water..go good for me...

Saturday, May 16, 2009

He know better than Me

Kita selalu Bertanya…. ……… …….dan Al-Quran sudah menjawabnya. ………
KITA BERTANYA :
KENAPA AKU DIUJI?
QURAN MENJAWAB

“Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja dengan mengatakan; “Kami telah beriman,” (”I am full of faith to Allah“) sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah menguji orang2 yang sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui orang2 yang benar dan, sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui orang2 yang dusta.”

-Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3

KITA BERTANYA :
KENAPA AKU TAK DAPAT APA YG AKU IDAM-IDAMKAN?
QURAN MENJAWAB

“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.”

- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216

KITA BERTANYA :
KENAPA UJIAN SEBERAT INI?
QURAN MENJAWAB

“Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya. “

- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286

KITA BERTANYA :
KENAPA AKU FRUST?
QURAN MENJAWAB

“Janganlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan janganlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah orang2 yang paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu orang2 yang beriman.”

- Surah Al-Imran ayat 139

KITA BERTANYA :
BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA?
QURAN MENJAWAB

“Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu (menghadapi segala kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara yang berkebajikan) , dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada kesabaran musuh, di medan perjuangan), dan bersedialah (dengan kekuatan pertahanan di daerah-daerah sempadan) serta bertaqwalah (be fearfull of Allah The Almighty) kamu kepada Allah supaya, kamu berjaya (mencapai kemenangan). ”

KITA BERTANYA :
BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA?
QURAN MENJAWAB

“Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk”

- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45

KITA BERTANYA :
APA YANG AKU DAPAT DARIPADA SEMUA INI?
QURAN MENJAWAB

“Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dari orang2 mu’min, diri, harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga untuk mereka…

- Surah At-Taubah ayat 111

KITA BERTANYA :
KEPADA SIAPA AKU BERHARAP?
QURAN MENJAWAB

“Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain dari Nya. Hanya kepadaNya aku bertawakkal. ”

- Surah At-Taubah ayat 129

KITA BERKATA :
AKU TAK DAPAT TAHAN!!!
QURAN MENJAWAB

“… ..dan jgnlah kamu berputus asa dari rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa dari rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yg kafir.”

- Surah Yusuf ayat 12

memang sebenarnya

Thursday, May 14, 2009

new job and new pack schedule..

suddenly, i got a lot of new work and assignment to do..
to become MC for zpd zone this saturday with ee boon...luckily..im not alone...
and..submission of our intro and methodology for HSR.. MUST be submit on next thursday..that so crazy..... bila mau buat ma... next week, i on first call...
im really look stress??? isn't true???? but i notice that recently my brain so empty, my job walking so slow.... while working together with Alicia, she always say to me, dont stress la..take it easy... but..wondering, how easy i should take it.... sometime, im so jealous to her.... she very confident in everything, in answering dr's and pt's query. ME... im still need encouragement to become like her... but, thanx because she really helpful and very sharing the info....

start singing...dont stress..dont stress..dont stress.....(have u heard this song???)

this month, i got a lot of call for the invatation... they will married... my schoolmate, my neighbour, my collougeu at hospital... ramainye org mau kawen ye.....
and..when a lot of my close person will be married, everyone around me will ask me tooo la...(I HATE THIS QUESTION)...never, never, never..thinking about this...... how come u will find out one guy that really2 sincere with u.... accept u as u r and never compare u to others.....and willing to tell the truth to what going on.... for me, NOT AT ALL.......

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

blurring so muuucch...

what happen on myself recently, im quite blur in so much thing... now, im working at FKP, face to a lot of patients, dispense the medication stressful... i thought i will be okay after come back from holiday, but condition become worst... sneezing, headache,running nose...lost of info... banyak lagi banyak bende yang aku tak tahu.....what happen r, wake up plzzz...another one week you will attach at ward with a new boss... i cant imagine how condtion will be....

i hope i still have time to learn a lot because i want know everything.....

in blurring but still touching...when dispense medication to children with hiv and thalesemia.... one kids, comes to me, actually when preparing the medication, i thought this medication belong to adult patient and when when i call the number, one boy kid come to me...suprisely,... and i ask him, adik...ubat ni untuk sapa...
he reply: untuk saya la kak...
continued asking..datang ngan sapa...
he say, datang ngan mak, tapi mak kat klinik atas.....
this medication is antiretroviral, for hiv patient... just see... this kid, need survive his life by taking this medication.....dia tak berdosa..tapi something yang die perlu tanggung, disebabkan orang lain...
it also same to patients with thalasemia, to live up..they also need depends to medication, and always need blood.....everyweek i thought they need transfuse the blood....so pity kan....

jadi..sy ingatkan diri saya, bsyukurlah ngan apa yg sy ada..
n i need b strong to whatever happens in front.....

time to early sleep after taking pcm and lora......
nite....

Friday, May 8, 2009

im not okay

im really not okay...
sometimes seems to cry, to scream.... and really under stress
if i never control my emotion, might be dr will prescribed me with luvox or diazepam...could be...who knows....hurm....
the truth, im just waiting end of this month, to get home.....i miss u mum n my little sis too.... MISS LIKE CRAZY...

my little sis will be da great teacher... i never see u for 7 years, Berk...very long period...cikgu Aby or cikgu farrah..u r same..always trick me..297 is belonging to us...very memorable..

Thursday, May 7, 2009

genting escape....

da place u can scream as much you want....
to release all da unsatisfactory happens around...
never thinking on the work burden, on the enemy attack and on the human habit around....
play the shooter games feel like i shoot my real enemy i front.....
but the truth, i need to realizet the real life happens not like what i had imagined....
unless i dare to face the everything......
FiNish....

gambate kudasai..berusahalah..chayook..all da best....
four months to go

Sunday, May 3, 2009

rest time

3 days at shah alam, kl n 1 day at melaka....
actually my mum so worried when she knew that i will drive alone to kl.... n i just let both my brothers know that i were at shah alam when i arrived there...
the road to kl quite worse( macam kene patuk ular)... normal....

at moment i arrived at shah alam, izan still at fac.... just waiting her come home..... for lunch, i ask her for ABC coklat...memang mengidam gile ABC pak cik.... sedapnyer.... then i told my brother that i were at shah alam, nak kuar makan ke x.... Iwan ask me for blanje him la.... Quite weird, my brother willing to off and ask me for shopping.... I just go with Iwan bcause a.kay always busy with bussiness... So, saya blanje Iwan kat Chicken Rice Shop and then accompany him shoopping a little bit equipment for his house. Then, sent Iwan back home... Suprisely, Iwan give me 300 dollar of parkson voucher, giant voucher and kfc voucher.... Of coz, he know adik die nie shopaholic.... my brother gone be crazy... but i like it...thanx...voucher parkson dah abih blanje(sale now okay)...but for giant one..tak luat pun.....

at nite, i got movie of x-men with izan at bukit tinggi.....this movie very great...i like it.. but i cant stand the very cold air cond in cinema....mggigil......

next day...we have go to Melaka.... road jam like crazy.... today is Labour day, that why...so much car....hu..hu.... Melaka is very nice place and so pleasant scenery... but, at this moment a lot of people.... nice view here especially at nite...

last day..... back to kl... time for shopping..... at Sogo... very nice price for a lot of thing... but, i cant stand a long there because, so many people...... so, i shopped nothing.. then, we move to Jln Tar.... pandainye kawan aku mbodek, 2 pasang kain, for only RM40.. mane nak dapat.... fuh...he..he... shopped with really nice price.. it worth...

last but not least, midnite..we go to up town at shah alam.... aku mencari barang yang murah, not bad...i got it.... fuh, she also told me that i am so shopaholic, but i never look on the branded one, as that thing very useful for me, i will grab it......no matter, even i buy it at up town..he..he..if i want the branded thing, just get it during sale because the price will drop obviously.....

lets pict....Melaka..Bandaraya bersejarah...








Saturday, May 2, 2009

X-Men-Origins-Wolverine

Sarat dengan babak penuh aksi, mendebarkan dan elemen kesan khas

  • Filem: X-Men Origins: Wolverine
  • Genre: Aksi, Fiksyen Sains
  • Pengarah: Gavin Hood
  • Pelakon: Hugh Jackman, Liev Schreiber, Danny Huston, Ryan Reynolds, will.i.am, Dominic Monaghan, Lynn Collins, Taylor Kitsch, Kevin Durand, Daniel Henney, Scott Adkins, Tim Pocock
  • Tayangan: Mulai 29 April
PEPERANGAN filem mega musim panas nampaknya dimulakan oleh filem aksi fiksyen sains yang ditunggu-tunggu peminat komik dan siri filem X-Men, X-Men Origins: Wolverine. Filem adiwira yang dibuat berdasarkan komik rekaan Marvel itu bagaimanapun bukanlah sambungan kepada siri X-Men yang berakhir dengan The Last Stand, pada 2006.

X-Men Origins bermula dengan paparan masa silam Logan ketika masih kanak-kanak, bagaimana dia membunuh ‘bapanya’, seterusnya menjadi buruan penduduk kampung. Dia dan abangnya, Victor, berjuang bersama-sama untuk terus hidup, termasuk menempuh beberapa era peperangan, sejak dulu hinggalah sekarang.


Bagaimanapun, tidak lagi tahan dengan segala keganasan yang berlaku di depan mata, termasuk oleh Victor sendiri. Logan meninggalkan kumpulan tentera mutan yang diketuai Kolonel William Stryker.

Enam tahun kemudian, selepas Logan memulakan hidup baru dengan bekerja di kawasan pembalakan, kekecohan muncul semula apabila Victor membunuh seorang demi seorang anggota pasukan tentera berkenaan. Stryker datang memberikan amaran, tetapi tidak dihindari Logan menyebabkan kekasihnya sendiri, Kayla, menjadi mangsa.

Kematian wanita itu menyebabkan Logan berazam untuk membalas dendam. Stryker pula menggunakan peluang berkenaan untuk memujuknya menyertai projek Senjata X, yang menyaksikan bahan sejenis keluli tak mampu dimusnahkan, adamantium, disatukan dengan tulang-temulangnya, menjadikan Logan makhluk sukar dikalahkan.

X-Men Origins menyaksikan betapa watak Logan atau Wolverine cuba bertarung antara sifat kemanusiaan dan haiwan yang lahir akibat dendam membara dalam diri. Di sinilah karakter yang kuat terserlah pada Wolverine, dengan kebanyakan babak memperlihatkan dirinya berada dalam keadaan marah dan penuh emosi.

Babak kejar mengejar antara Wolverine dan kumpulan Stryker yang dirakam di New Zealand, membabitkan penggunaan helikopter antara adegan yang pasti menyeronokkan untuk ditonton. Tidak ketinggalan, adegan perlawanan tiga penjuru antara Wolverine, Sabretooth dan Gambit. Terutama ketika ‘raja’ segala mutan, Deadpool, muncul semula sebagai Weapon XI untuk mencabut nyawa.

Selain Wolverine, Sabretooth, Cyclops dan Deadpool si mutan yang hebat bermain pedang, filem ini juga rancak dengan kemunculan beberapa watak mutan lain seperti Gambit yang mampu memberikan kuasa kepada segala apa yang disentuhnya, Kayla Silverfox (berkuasa memujuk seseorang dengan daya sentuhan), Bolt (mutan yang mampu memanipulasi elektrik), Emma Frost (boleh menukar dirinya kepada berlian), Dukes (mempunyai kulit yang kuat), John Wraith (mutan yang boleh menghilangkan diri dan muncul di mana-mana) serta Agent Zero (mempunyai kemahiran menembak yang tinggi).


I give 5 star for this movie...best....
Coming next..a lot of great movie...
Hope, i have time to watch...